Hallie...my hero...

Last Friday I had a tubal ligation and an uterine ablation..it was only day surgery and I spent the rest of the weekend recuperating without the kids..

The kids came back from Doug's parents on Sunday with the sniffles...

Monday morning when I went to wake Hallie up for school, she told me she was feeling crappy and asked to stay home...I was a little reluctant as I was not feeling the best and did not want to deal with an extra child home..but I would deal and told her to go back to sleep...

Later that day...all of us were in the basement...the kids were watching cartoon and I was on the computer...next thing I knew...I woke up on the floor and Hallie was over me crying, telling me that daddy had called 911 and an ambulance was on the way...few minutes later I heard the paramedics come in the front door...somehow I blacked out and fell on the floor...

Hallie, bless her...kept calm and called Doug on his cell phone and told him that mommy fell on the floor and won't wake up...Doug immediately called 911 and sent them to the house, he left school asap...

The paramedics hooked my up to a heart monitor, they told me my heart rate was fast, and they took my blood sugar and it was low, I also had no color in my face at all...I don't know what happened..

A few minutes later Doug and my mother came through the door scared shitless...

I got something to eat and the paramedics could not find anything wrong with me...it could have been my blood sugar and stress of the surgery with the anesthesia still in my system..

But thank heavens Hallie was there...I can't imagine what would have happened if she was not there...Leah and James would have been alone, it only takes them a few minutes to get into trouble, not to mention how scared they would have been not to be able to wake mommy up...Since Hallie was old enough I taught her about 911 and to memorize Doug's cell phone number, just in case something like that ever happened...I'm so proud of her, she was crying when I woke up, but she doesn't know how long I was out for, I am thinking probably at least 5 minutes...Leah keeps telling me that I fell out of the computer chair and that she was scared...

I'm just so thankful this story had a happy ending...

So please all you parents reading this...tell your kids what to do in an emergency, make sure they know the phone numbers and how to use a phone to call for help...

I'm still here..

Not dead..

James and Leah keep me busy...beyond busy..I can not turn my back 5 minutes and James is into something...a cupboard, closet...anything..

He starts at 6am...goes and goes...where the hell do these kids find the energy...its endless...when he naps (for 20 min) I deal with Leah...manage to throw a load of laundry in the washer or sweep the floor..

James goes to bed at 7pm...he is on a pretty good sleep routine..thank God...I know at 7pm I am one down...two to go...

Leah used to be great a bedtime...jammies, play for a bit...brush teeth, read a story and bed..no resisting...

Now, not so much...the battle has started...most times I just surrender and let her stay up..

Hallie still hates going to bed...

So when finally all the little darlings are tucked into their nests..its my time...now its probably close to 10pm...I am exhausted...frustrated knowing that in 8 hours it will start all over again..

There is no time for me left..I read for a few minutes so I don't totally forget what my novel is about...catch some TV and praise Jesus that someone invented the DVR...

I drag my ass to bed...

A Year In Review...

Happy New Year!

I was not sorry to see the ass end of 2010..I can honestly say it was the worst year of my life so far..but, I guess it can only get better here on out...

So lets hope for a wonderful 2011....

Now I have a New Years blog tradition...I did this little questionnaire the last 2 years...2008 answers are in blue, 2009 are in red and 2010 are in green...


1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?

I said goodbye to my nanna before she passed away *sniff*
Began using cloth diapers
Made a blog
Learn to let things just "go"
Got a snake as a pet
Fed said snake a dead mouse *barf*
Watched Hannah Montana about 123546467 times
Became part of the Webkinz hysteria
Tried being vegan for a week *did lose 3lbs that week*


Give birth to a baby with a penis

Gee, I did not do much this year...that's sad...


Went on a long road trip with all the kids...
Wrote an obituary..
Colored my hair bright red..


2. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
Money *duh*
Patience with my husband and my girls
Self control over food


Money, that will always be the answer hahaha!
A psychologist
Still self control over food *damn you food*

Money
A psychologist


3.What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 19- Hallie's big operation
April 3- Saw Leah the 1st time in my tummy with 3d ultrasound
July 5- Leah was born
Sept 8- I turned 30
Nov 27- My Nanna died

Feb 20 I had a positive pregnancy test
July 5 Leah turned 1
Sept 5 Doug started school
Oct 26 my son was born

August 11 My dad passed away

4. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Giving Birth

Giving Birth....I see a trend..

Managing to function after my father died...

5. What was your biggest failure?
Not visiting my nanna more

All the mommy guilt I felt by getting pregnant so soon after having Leah

Not telling my dad how much I loved him or spending every second with him before he passed...

6. What was the best thing you bought?
Baby Einstein DVDs

Our new kiddie mobile, we can fit the whole clan..and room for 2 more...

Kitchen aid Artisan stand mixer

7. Where did most of your money go?
Food and the girls


Food and the kids..

Renovating the house and buying Doug a car

8. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Everything my girls do, Leah smiling for the 1st time, Hallie getting 92% on her math test
Obama winning the US election


Having a boy, watching Leah walk and talk...Hallie getting so mature, Doug doing so awesome at school..

Ordering my new kitchen

9. What song will always remind you of 2008?

Hannah Montana "Best of Both Worlds" I heard it all summer long..morning to night


Lady Gaga Poker Face....it was on all the time...

Airplanes by BOB

10. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?

Happier/Thinner/Poorer


Happier/fatter/poorer...

Sadder/thinner/richer

11. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Bitch to my husband

Bitch to and about my husband

Bitch to and about my husband, lose my patience with the kids



12. How did you spend Christmas?

With Doug and the Girls, we put up our own little tree in the basement with gifts. We went to my mom's for Xmas lunch and stayed home that night-it was nice and quiet!

With Doug and the kids...

Doug and the kids...we made breakfast for all the family (3rd year now) and I did a turkey for the whole family on Boxing Day

13. Did you fall in love in 2008?

Everyday, a thousand times

Everyday, a thousand times..

Everyday, a thousand times...

14. What was your favorite TV program?

Dexter, The Tudors, Heroes, Survivor, Big Love

Dexter, The Tudors, Big Love, Vampire Diaries

I did not watch anything all year...

15. What was the best book you read?

Atonement by Ian McEwan


The Secret History of Paris by Andrew Hussey

Unbearable Lightness by Portia De Rossi...such a great book...I highly recommend..

16 What did you want and get?

A baby girl

A baby boy

New Diamond ring...pic will follow soon...

17. What did you want and not get?

A new car

Liposuction

A miracle

18. What was your favorite film of this year?

Sex and the city


Julie and Julia

Sex and the City 2..it was one of the 3 movies I watched last year..can't remember the others..

19. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I was 30 and I went out the supper with the family

I turned 31 and went out to supper with the family and met an Olympic champion..

I turned 32 and it was sad...my 1st bday without my dad...

20. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

HAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa. What is fashion?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.Fuck Fashion!

Sweatpants and t shirts has become my fashion

21. What kept you sane?
My girls


My husband, he is my everything and really an amazing man and father

My husband, my kids and my mom...

22. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Guess what? I don't care

I still don't care...

Yep, don't care..

23. Who did you miss?

My Nanna who passed away and Amy, she is in Afghanistan


Still my Nanna and Amy

My daddy

25. Who was the best new person you met?
Leah


My little man, James

Tripp Roth...he is an amazing little guy and his mom is a warrior..she is my inspiration!

26. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
Karma is a real bitch!


Honesty is the best policy...

Don't take anyone for granted..they could be gone tomorrow

27. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

I really couldn't’t care less about music

Ditto...

Same again...


Take care

Christmas in Heaven...

This will be my 1st Christmas without my dad...I am not sure how I will hold up on the 25th..he was there every Xmas for 32 years...he did not care about what gifts he got, he always got so much joy with us kids and the grandkids..

Doug's grandfather passed away today...he had recently been diagnosed with cancer..he lost his battle..

I found this poem...I thought it would be perfect to share...


My First Christmas in Heaven
I see the countless
Christmas trees
around the world below
With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars,
reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular,
please wipe away the tear
For I am spending Christmas with
Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear
But the sounds of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you,
the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description,
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away,
We really aren't apart.

So be happy for me, dear ones,
You know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift,
from my heavenly home above.
I sent you each a memory
of my undying love

After all, love is a gift more precious
than pure gold.
It was always most important
in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other,
as my Father said to do.
I can't count the blessing or love
he has for each of you.

So have a Merry Christmas and
Wipe away that tear
Remember, I am spending Christmas with
Jesus Christ this year


From my family to yours...Merry Christmas...

Scary Birthday!

Here it is....the long awaited and seriously overdue pictures...

Up first...Halloween...

Hallie in her costume...she was a deer vampire queen..


The whole family...I went as Snookie devil, Doug was Gingy from Shrek..James was a pony *so cute* and Leah was an Angel..








A few pics of the kids wearing some random Halloween mask...







Birthdays:

James' 1st Birthday...



A banner Aunt Jen made...



His cake...

The birthday boy eating his cake...it took him a few minutes for him to realize that he was allowed to touch it...





Hallie's 9th Birthday..


Hallie is into deer at the moment...so she asked for a deer cake...Doug got creative and made one...I think it turned out really good...



A stuffed Rudolph that we got her from Costco..for her other gift we got her an ipod...





And just a few random Leah pics....




Making a funny face..

That's it..I do have some video that I will embed later in this post..they are still uploading on YouTube..

Have a great weekend..I will be wrapping presents this weekend..fun! I am being sarcastic, if any of you remember my Xmas post from last year..you already know I hate Christmas..

Edited to add...I am not sure why the page is so long...

Time.....wtf is that?

Okay, I have to update my blog...I am running out of excuses...gee..my fingers were broken..

No, seriously...I am sure most of you have jumped ship already..

But having 2 kids under the age of 2 and a half is keeping me pretty busy..especially since James had decided to start this whole walking business...I made him swear he was going to wait until he was 2...

So, I owe 2 birthday posts and a Halloween and random pics..

I promise they will be posted soon...

If I only had a hammer...

I am trying to put up the videos and pics from James' and Hallie's birthdays and the pics from Halloween...

But technology hates me today..I have to upload the pics one at a time, and then upload the videos onto youtube then put them here...its a whole days work...

Check back tonight, if the little terrors allow me, I should be able to get them on...