Writers Block....

I've been so busy the last few weeks, I've just been to damn tired to sit down at the computer and write..I've been going to bed too late (hockey playoffs) and getting up too early..

Not too much has been going on...Hallie's school year is winding to a close and I am all to happy to give up making lunches and keeping track of gym and library days..blissful two months!

My due date got changed to Nov 5..only a day but when you hit 39 weeks, that 1 day makes a big difference..my Dr is confident that I will actually give birth in October..as I've gone a week early with all my pregnancies...so we will see

I'm in the early planning stages of Leah's 1st Bday...July 5th! Many thanks to Jenn for the ladybug banner, it it perfect! I'm hoping the weather is nice so we can have a BBQ..fingers crossed!

Speaking of nice weather, last week we had one really hot day..I dug out a little kiddie pool for Leah to splash in, she loved it! The weather has been shitty ever since...






My foot in this shot, it looks really fat..it is not...but I do need a pedicure

Just a cute pic I took of Leah...I love how she closes her eyes when she smiles..I noticed that her eyes are changing color, they seem to be turning grey??

This is a new way to drink out of a sippy cup...whatever works!

And this is why I love having girls....sisterly love...

I hope they have a close relationship, I am so excited to watch them grow up together

Have a great weekend, Hallie's school fair is tommorow and the 1st game of the Stanley Cup playoffs is tommorow night- GO PENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A snake, mustard and a moment of insanity...

I want mustard, I want to make love to it..I stand at the fridge and squeeze it into my mouth..

Now that is out of the way, I have a few updates to pass along from the last week...Leah is cutting 4 top teeth all at once..which means no sleep for me, although I think them coming in all at once is probably better than one here and there. Hallie's fish died, well they died a week after we got them but I just forgot to tell you.

Now that I am starting to look pregnant, people are starting with the "boy" comments, and I am getting really pissed....here is just a sample..

• Neighbor #1-"Trying for your boy" -Nope, trying for a baby really, but I could give birth to a cat..who knows
• Neighbor #2 after I told her I think it is another girl- "oh that's too bad" -WTF, yes, because girls are worthless
• Barb the pharmacy technician "boys sure do love their mommas" oh, I guess my girls do not love me..that's why Leah keeps me up all night..she hates me..fuck, why did I not think of that?

Sure, if this one is a girl we will be spending 10 million dollars on clothes, tampons, shoes and makeup..but we love our girls and would be thrilled with another..Doug and I feel blessed, you get what you are given and if that is 3 girls then there must a reason why God would give us them. Besides, I'm sure I will have grandsons, and then I can have "my boy" and give him back when he is being a little shit-I like that idea much better!

Here is some pics I took this week...

Leah looking cute as a kitty..meow!











That white thing on the floor beside her, that is the safety latch..she ripped it off..I need to organize my cupboards..yikes! Oh, the other thing on the floor besides the latch is her cookie not a mammoth piece of dirt

She has been standing on her own a lot, for a few minutes now at a time..after I took this pic, she fell into the clothes basket, her feet were sticking up...I felt bad for laughing but it was cute!

Just a video of her being silly...

Hallie and her boy snake with the girl name...

Oh, and my moment of insanity...wanting a 4th..

Say it with a cake...

Uterus...Yummy

I found this cake after discovering this blog http://cakewrecks.blogspot.com/ ....its brilliant!

Nothing says Happy Mother's Day better than an cake that thanks the mom for not having an abortion, and it looks to be on top of a Louis Vuitton bag???

I was looking for baby cakes and mostly babyshower cakes came up in the search...holy moly there are some creepy cakes out there, who the fuck makes these things???

This one is just odd....

This one is different, I notice this seems to be the new trend in babyshower cakes...

And this one, imagine going to the bakery counter to order your cake and ask them to do this...

I've seen this one before, its Linda's fave...

I plan to have a quiet Mother's Day..Hallie and Leah got me a few little spa items...its like they have this impression that I have time to pamper myself...

So happy Mother's Day to all you moms!

French Onion Soup a la Amanda

I spend most of my computer time looking through food blogs, so I decided that I wanted to do at least one entry about something I make..so here is my attempt and I apologize my camera is not the best and I am no photographer so no heckling please....



Doug has been harassing me for the last 5 years to make french onion soup, I have no idea why as he is not the french onion soup type, he seems to me more vegetable noodle, but anyways I finally broke down, picked up the stuff yesterday and started cooking early this morning, authentic french onion soup is a long process..but the French, they must do everything better..chocolate, bread, wine and kissing...


My dutch oven...it is made by Mario Batali and weighs at least 20 lbs, but I cook everything in this and it goes into the oven too, which is a bonus...I am asking Santa for a Le Creuset (French) for Xmas this year...lime green one please Doug, oh I mean Santa!



A necessity when making french onion soup, is the bowls...please do not laugh at mine..a few years ago I was going through a retro kitchen phase and picked these babies up at a garage sale for $1...oldies but still goodies...







It took me an hour to cut up all the onions, Leah kept picking up the stray ones off the floor I knew if she put one in her mouth she would promptly spit it out, she did and made a face...




I had to cook the onions in butter on the stove top for a half hour, I love this part..mmmmm..onions and butter!





After the onions softened up, I had to stick them in the oven for an hour to caramelize them even more..tick tock...okay, hour later..they look like this..




I then had to add the white wine (French..notice the theme) and scrape off all the brown crispy bits, I let the wine reduce and holy hell it smelled divine in my kitchen...the wine, the butter and onions...I'm sorry smelling through the screen has not yet been invented...poor souls!





Okay, then after it reduced I added to beef and chicken broth..then had to let simmer on the stove for an hour....and voila...this is what it looked like all done..



I know it does not look the nicest, but really its only onions and broth..what do you expect...its still in its naked stage...here comes the cheese...grated Swiss(not french)...



Still....missing something....oh yes...the french baguette...toasted to a sexy golden brown!




And let the soup, cheese and bread have a menage a trois (french again,hahaha)



Magnifique!


This is after I inhaled some, notice the cheese and the onions....it really is divine!

If you have all day, try it...if not you can get some at your local grocery store for $6.99 in the freezer section but I bet it will not taste as good as mine!

This was kind of fun, cooking and taking pictures..I might do it again soon..

Ten Months

Dear Leah

Today you are ten months, and mama is teary...


A year ago you looked like this..









And this is you today...

Mama is sad because you are not going to be a baby for much longer *sniff* and when your brother or sister is born you are not going to be "the" baby anymore...I found a poem I want to share with you..I told it to your sister a year ago when you were still in my tummy..

I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: how could I ever love another child as I love you?

Then she is born, and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as you’ve never shared me before.

I hear you telling me in your own way, “Please love only me”. And I hear myself telling you in mine, “I can’t”, knowing, in fact, that I never can again.

You cry. I cry with you. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again.

But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and feeling almost guilty. I’m afraid to let you see me enjoying her, as though I am betraying you.

But then I notice your resentment change, first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, finally to genuine affection.

More days pass, and we are settling into a new routine. The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast.

But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two. There are new times – only now, we are three. I watch the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other.

I watch how she adores you – as I have for so long. I see how excited you are by each of her new accomplishments. And I begin to realize that I haven’t taken something from you, I’ve given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you.

I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you – only differently.

And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you’ll never share my love. There’s enough of that for both of you – you each have your own supply.

I love you – both. And I thank you both for blessing my life.

Author Unknown

So Leah, my wish is that you and your future sibling will be the best of friends and that all 3 of you will have wonderful relationships and be there for each other long after I am gone..

Love Mama

PS-Mama would like some sleep please kay thanks

Friday Cuteness...number whatever...

Busy, busy week...



Monday I woke up to heavy bleeding from my girly parts (in case its not obvious) okay..so I go to the hospital..blah, blah...everything is fine, I'm not really sure what happened, but I hope it does not happen again!!! We had our ultrasound on Tuesday, little nugget looks great and will be due on Nov 6, the day before Hallie's birthday, I'm hoping to go a week early though and I usually do...so maybe a Halloween baby *boo*



Hallie got smashed in the face with a badminton racket on Monday so she has a black eye, I could not get a very good pic of it, but you can kinda see it here...

We had one really hot sunny day here, I threw the kids outside and took a few pics..Leah in her wagon

Hallie on her scooter

Leah climbs up on everything now and can stand for a few minutes by herself...after I took this pic she face planted into the side of the lawn chair, she is so clumsy..least if she is a slow learner in school I can blame it on all the head injuries she sustained as a baby, tough cookie though my girl is!

And finally Hallie driving her barbie car, she only has had it for 2 years and just driving it now..were teaching her how to drive early..haha!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!